I am doing good. For once in my life I think I have everything – somewhat – figured out. I know who my true friends are. I know my likes and dislikes. My family and I are doing good. My grades are good. My mental state is good. My physical state is not too bad either. I feel like a decent human being. But, is that a bad thing? How could I possibly feel good if the rest of the world is falling apart? Am I a bad person for being okay?
I’m remorseful. I feel bad for feeling good, for being okay. Today it’s like, you can’t be happy. You can’t be okay. How could you anyway? When in the house next to you somebody is being abused. When your friend is having a bad day. Everyone’s got problems. But they’re not yours. The sadness and pain, they don’t belong to you. Feeling ashamed and guilty for not having problems, for being okay, is stupid and I know that, but for some reason I still feel that way. In your life, you will face so much crap. You will have ups and downs, you’ll have problems of your own that nobody will take into consideration, so why should you? Now, I’m not saying be inconsiderate and ignorant to others’ problems, don’t get me wrong. All I’m trying to say here is: it’s okay to be okay. It’s fine to be an optimist. It’s fine to be okay. You’re not being fake, and no you’re not trying to be “trendy” by looking at the bright side of things. By saying that the cup is half full rather than half empty. You’re just trying to get by like any other. And that’s okay.
You shouldn’t be ashamed for feeling good about yourself or your life or any of your accomplishments because they didn’t come easy. You work hard for everything that you got. You’re parents work hard to give you things and to open doors for you. You shouldn’t feel guilty about hard work, because you deserve it. Nothing is simply being handed to you, you are working for it. Even if the person next to you is working harder or needs it more, it’s not up to you. It’s up to god. God decided to bless you with whatever it is that you have and he definitely had his reasons, and god doesn’t make mistakes.
I don’t want to talk too much about things and get off topic over here but, the moral of the story is: you deserve to be happy. You deserve to feel good about yourself and your deserve to be okay. Everybody does. Other people’s problems are not your own. They are not yours. Yes, you should help them and advise them. Stand by their side when they need you, but it’s their problem to deal with. Just like you have had and will have problems that are yours and only yours. Yes, you can have help but at the end of the day they belong to you. You shouldn’t feel guilty for feeling good. You deserve the world. And you deserve to be okay.