By: Hanna Haitham

i’m opening up
it’s the dawn of a new day
will we turn to dust
or will we fade away?

if i dare forget
all that we shared
do i have to pretend
that you were never there?

all the missing holes
that you used to fill
you had the control
but it was never against my will

if i turned the page
if i just didn’t care
will you fade away
will it be like you were never there?

if i forget
i have to deal with the space
that began when you left
and started filling up the place
the emptiness overwhelms me
the numbness makes me feel scared
i only feel alive in our memories
when i can pretend you were never there

i’m running off
it’s the light of a new day
we might turn to dust
but we’ll never fade away

what we had still fills me
all the time that we shared
and i still search helplessly
for a time when you were never there

but if i forget
then i’ll have to own up
to all the pain i’ve had since you left
and my strength isn’t enough

the numbness takes over me
i find solace in all that we shared
but for now i have to search blindly
for a time when you were never there