Dear mom and dad,
You will always and forever hold a very special place in my heart. You were always there for me when I needed you, even if sometimes we weren’t on the best of terms, you were still there, right by my side, supporting me no matter what. I could never express the amount gratitude that I have towards you and no amount of “thank you”s will ever suffice.
You sacrificed so much to keep me happy, healthy, and alive – I owe you my life. You’ve helped me accomplish many of my goals and when I would doubt myself – which was quite often – you would push me to be my best self. You believed in me, sometimes. We fought plenty and we’ll continue to fight endlessly but that is only because we care too much for one another and we’re too stubborn to realize it, at least that’s what you have taught me.
I was taught many things growing up because of you, but most importantly I learned that life is a bitch. You either kill or get killed. I remember you yelling at me for crying because my best friend and I got into a fight. You taught me nobody is forever, not even your parents. I love you and I will forever be grateful for you.
Mom and Dad, I am sorry to tell you that I am not you. I make mistakes over and over again. I cry when I’m upset and scream in fury when I am mad. I get ambivalent about things and people. I fail, but that doesn’t make me a failure and you shouldn’t make me feel like I am, nor am I a disappointment for not doing something you’d wanted me to do. I am not selfish for taking good care of myself. You taught me to put the people I love before myself, to make them happy without a care for my own self, but I guess you didn’t know better.
We are two completely different generations, but before that, different people, please comprehend that. I am more hopeful about tomorrow and look forward to new opportunities. I want to travel the world, you want to stay home. I’m not a rebel nor have I done anything radical, so don’t worry about me. You raised me well enough to know right from wrong.
i know that you love me deeply and want to see my achievements, but I am not you, so stop trying to live vicariously through me. I don’t want to become an engineer, nor do I want to be a doctor. I want to write. I want to see the world and take pictures of it. I want to make a change, and I don’t have to be a doctor to do so.
I can be happy by myself, I don’t need a man. I don’t need to have kids to feel fulfilled and accomplished. I don’t want to be a housewife. I want to experience the world. This is not me disrespecting you, but confronting you. I am not you. I am me – and I am happy with that.